panas... panas... panas...

hati aku gila panas hari ini... kesian dengan si adik aku... terpaksa berdepan dengan karenah tidak professional seorang doktor 'pakar' di sebuah hospital kerajaan... huih... geramnya aku... i wish i were there to bark at his attitude...

aku pernah bekerja dengan beberapa orang doktor pakar dan aku faham dengan ragam mereka... kadang-kadang memang terasa sedikit penat dan angin dengan karenah mereka... namun... mereka masih mempunyai sikap kemanusiaan yang tinggi... tetapi... daripada apa yang adik aku ceritakan pada aku... that was the worst thing about a doktor that i have ever heard...

pagi tadi adik aku ada appoinment... dia pun pergilah... pergi seorang sebab rakan-rakan dia ada kelas... okay fine... the appointed time was 9 a.m. and she finally got to meet the doctor at 11.30... okay... still fine... the doctor was a different doctor from the one that she had met before... she asked for that previous doctor who handled her case... and this fella said that that particular doctor was not there anymore... okay fine... adik aku had to undergo the same q&a routine... the reason... they couldn't find her file... the doctor said that the file was lost and it would take ages to find it and he had many other waiting patients outside... he scolded my sister for not making any copy... what?! to make things worst... he jotted down another appointment date in the month of NOVEMBER for another colonoscopy... after yawning twice or thrice he said that my sister's case was not that serious and it could wait for another 3 or 4 months... what the ****! arggghhh...

akhirnya... adik aku ditimpa mega stress dan sakitnya makin menjadi-jadi... she took a cab back to the campus and cried and cried and cried... damn that doctor for worsening her condition... double damn... truly... now i really understand why private hospitals are more popular... it is okay to spend such large amount of money when we can get nice doctors who can speak softly with smile on their faces... and most importantly those who do not yawn infront of their patients... sucks! honestly... i really pity those who can't afford private hospitals... especially those students like my sister and me :-(

tomorrow... i'll be going to the general hospital for my appoinment with a gynea there... fine... i'll go... but it is not because i am eager to see a doctor or i have changed my attitude towards drugs... just consider it as an act of bowing to one of the many social obligations... hmmm... let's see what will happen...

nota: excuse me for the cursing... (wiping my mouth with a white hanky)
nasihat: sabor mummy sabor... anger is satanic... sabor... pish... posh... pish... posh...


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alhamdulillah...

petang tadi aku dapat tawaran bekerja... jadi part-time tutor di sebuah universiti tempatan di central... alhamdulillah sekali lagi... aku rasa keliru hendak membuat keputusan... kerja aku belum siap... aku segan nak menumpang rumah kawan aku... dan macam-macam lagi perkara yang aku fikirkan... jadinya aku consult ayah dan mak... mereka lampu hijau aje... hehehe... aku dah agak dah... lagipun otak aku ni memang moist banyak kalau aku tak bersosial... okaylah... aku ingat okay la kot aku bekerja ni... manalah tahu... berkat berkhidmat pada anak bangsa... moga-moga otak aku pun pulih kembali dan dapat siapkan thesis aku secepat mungkin... lagipun boleh gak aku warm-up sikit... hehehe... part-time sebelah pagi... ajar literature... okay... okay... sebelah petang sampai malam aku buat la kerja aku ni... okayyyyy...

erk... dah dua tahun aku tak mengajar anak orang ni... masih 'kick' lagikah aku ni? hmmm...

ayah dan mak no objection... maka lepas ni aku akan smsl la sahabat aku tu... green light... on!

yehhaaa!
kuala lumpur...
here i come!

pesanan kepada diri sendiri: kau tak rasa bersalah ke? Allah beri kau rezeki dari sumber yang tak disangka-sangka namun kau masih begitu juga... ditakuk lama... insaflah wahai mummy... redhalah dengan segala bentuk kesusahan... dan... bersyukurlah... semoga kau menjadi insan yang lebih baik daripada kau yang sedia ada pada hari ini.... aminnn...