yippie!!!

i'm backkkkkk!

best sungguh dapat balik jasin ni... familiar furniture... familiar cats... familiar trees... familiar smell... my bed... my office corner... and most importantly... those familiar and dearest faces again...

perghhh... lama sungguh aku tak dapat nak online sejak dua menjak mudik ke hulu ke hilir di selangor dan wilayah persekutuan tu... how i really wish that i have my own house or room di wilayah tengah tu... memang okay jek aku dok menumpang rumah members dan sedara mara kat sana tu but... it will never be the same as having my own room, keeping my own house key and plugging into my own phone line... thus... buat keseluruhan minggu ni aku ingat aku nak bertapa dok diam-diam dalam rumah dan siapkan kerja aku... lagipun aku nak jimatkan expenses nih.... hehehe...

erk... aku sampai di rumah malam semalam... disambut oleh sehelai surat yang membuatkan aku rasa amat pentan sehingga hari ni... payah tul deal dengan orang yang berpangkat ni... tapi what the heck! bagi aku... sesuatu pangkat tu hanyalah ketinggian di dalam masyarakat... di dunia... bila-bila masa boleh hilang... manusia itu tetap manusia biasa... tetapi kalau seseorang itu mempunyai ilmu agama yang tinggi dan juga mampu mendidik manusia ke arah kebaikan... itulah sebenar-benarnya insan yang berpangkat... erk... apa yang aku membebel ni... blewp...

moral of the story... aku nak jadi lara croft... siti, memang power aaa citer tuh... do not be too curious... do not open the pandora box... hmmm... ada relevant ka?

macam mana ek? macam mana aku nak stay the same... aku selalu cuak dengan perubahan... aku selalu tak bersedia untuk menerima perubahan... aku selalu melancholy dengan kisah-kisah silam... payah tul aaa... it's not easy to be me... payah... payah...



Don't you ever wish
you were someone else
you were meant to be the way
you are exactly

Don't you ever say
you don't like the way you are
when you learn to love yourself
you're better off by far

and I hope you always stay the same...
'cuz there's nothin of you I would change

I think that you could be
whatever you want to be
if you could realize
all the dreams you have inside
don't be afraid if you've got something to say
just open up your heart
and let it show you the way

Dont you ever wish
you were someone else
you were meant to be
the way you are exactly

Don't you ever say
you don't like the way you are
when you learn to love yourself
you're better off by far

and I hope you always stay the same...
'cuz there's nothin 'bout you I would change

Believe in yourself
reach down inside
the love you find
will set you free

Believe in yourself
you'll come out right
have faith in what you do
you'll make it through

Don't you ever wish
you were someone else
you were meant to be the way (you were meant to be)
you are exactly

Don't you ever say
you don't like the way you are (whew)
when you learn to love yourself (love yourself)
you're better of by far

and I hope you always stay the same...
(stay the same)
'cuz there's nothin of you I would change (change)
no there's nothin' 'bout you I would change
(don't change)

Joey Mcintyre - Stay the Same