Muharram Comes Again...

Alhamdulillah.

It comes again and I am still alive to live the first day of the year.

I shouldn't say that this first day of the year was welcomed with joy and happiness. It was not. Sad memories it is full with. Recollections it is full with. Every single pieces was replayed vividly. Of those sorrow moments three years ago.

I reflected and recounted. I've found out that I've wasted so much time on nothing. I've found out that there are more to do in order to further know my own self. I've found out that need to progress in terms of being an 'abd and a khalifah.

I cried and cried and cried. But, crying won't help.

Stand up! Pull self together! March forward! Hijrah!

I promise myself that this new 1429 Hijrah year would be different. Insya-Allah.

Mouth-Out the Slicky Worries

i can't sleep... i passed out after 6pm and woke up at 11pm... my body is still not functioning accordingly... luckily i will not be having any classes for these remaining days of the week...

yesterday i experienced series of vomitting and bloating... very bad indeed... everything was poured onto my bed... i was terribly weak and hardly had any strength to move my muscles... my sugar reading was 17.3... ayah called all my sisters and brothers to transfer his scolds to me... he would never speak directly to me... i don't understand why... then my sisters and brothers would scold me for having to bear ayah's nags which were all directed to me... they were the "media"... hmmm... funny huh? a unique father and the eldest child relationship... feel so sorry for my sisters and brothers...

i am still recuperating... they wanted to admit me into the wards but i told them i was ok...

am i ok?

uh uh uh... feel dizzy again...

blurry vision...

Happy Celebrating 2008!

Salam Tahun Baru 2008!

Another year and another chapter of life. Indeed, how time flies.

It was a moment ago I jotted down my thoughts for the 2007 iltizam. 365 days ago and three years since my mom answered His call.

I am still the same me. But, with few pages of good differences on the chapters of my life. Wretched by trials and tribulations in terms of health and wealth, I am still standing strong in spirit and mind.

Alhamdulillah... I pray and hope that 2008 will bring better livelihood, better health and sufficient resources to support my brief worldly life. I do not hope for the beyond, just hope to became a better 'abd as time goes on.

Though I am not celebrating Masehi calendar year, it is my wish that 2008 will bring goodness for everybody on earth.

May 2008 bring joy and happiness to all!