2005: Lost Some. Gained Some?

yeah... this is the year... 2005

The Beginning.

greet the year with ear-to-ear smiles :-)

2005 Jan - taught great mushrooms and yamabushi

2005 Feb - lost her at the struck of 1st. Muharram

2005 Mac - made myself busy at Jalan Kent

2005 April - camped at Jalan Kent

2005 May - camped at Jalan Kent... still

2005 June - celebrated the 40 years...

2005 July (early) - nice bunch of PPOU kids (",)

2005 July (end) - defeated by reality

2005 August - a quiet birthday... a sour celebration...

2005 Sept - moment of silence

2005 Oct - the silence continued...

2005 Nov - definite decision! breach it!

2005 Dec - ... and he lives happily ever after...

leave the year with infinite numbness :-(

The End.

kenapa? the unfinished...

have you ever felt so lethargic without any reasons and all you wish to do is to lie down on your back and freeze? yeah! that's my exact feeling at the moment. i wish to lie down and not to move any single muscle - ignoring the students' essays, the sound of squeking fan, the glaring lamp, the smell of rain, the everything -

sampai hati beliau buat kami begini. kami pun sunyi juga. kami pun kehilangan. kami pun perlukan kasih. kami pun perlukan sayang. kami masih rasa pedih. hati kami remuk. tapi kenapa beliau buat kami begini? kenapa beliau hanya fikir tentang kebahagiaan beliau sahaja? kenapa beliau tidak mahu ambil tahu apakah erti kebahagiaan sebenar buat kami? kami tidak mahu harta. huh! kini beliau asyik berkira dengan kami. penat menggemukkan kami, mungkin. kepedihan kami kian bertambah. hati kami sudah terserpih terbang melayang ditiup angin kemarau yang mampir.

fikiranku berkecamuk...